why? because i'm one of the victim.
this came from my own experiences.
it can be whoever that would do this to you.
for me, it was my friend and my mom.
i just wanna share with you all.
that this is not a good experience, it's hardtime. and sometimes it's just hard to fix everything if it's just done.
sometimes i was just like "where is God?" and "why this is all happen to me?"
but, all i learned is behind the hardtime that you hate. sooner or later, you will understand why God put you through. it's just not only because you're stronger than you ever knew.
so i was bullied for 2 years straight, i know... there are so many people out there that might be even worse than me. well, you know how it goes, right? they yelled at me almost everydy saying something like bitch, devil, slut yeah anything like that. and it was hurt me the most because they were my bestfriends that i loved the most and i've considered them as my sisters.
i'd do anything for them. like i bullied girls with them because all of them didi it and they wanted me to.
i knew it was very wrong, even if i felt super guilty i did it anyway.
but then, when finally they bullied me, it made me realize that that was what i did to the girls the other day. it's how they felt and how they affeted by that. It made me understand and i swore i'd never do that again.
i lost all of my confidence, lost all good things in me, being really introvert, like i'd never ever trust anyone again.
after all that done, i found out again, that was not just made me stronger and appreciate about what is friendship for. but, i think God saved me. He didn't want me to be a mean girl. And he wanted me to learn how to forgive. he wanted me to treat all people with the same kindliness. because the girls i bullied earlier, i didn't even realized their presence.And i never hated anyone. because those girls were my sisters, how could i not forgive them right away when they just asked me? they finally came back to me.
and for my mom.
maybe she still doesn't stop now. or maybe she will never. she is a good mom, no matter how hard she hit my cheek, i always end up crying and realized i can't hate her. i can feel too much love for her to hate. she has a quick temper. get angry easily. she's angry with someone, all the house will destroyed. she will angry with anyone. i couldn't blame her for angry with me. like, mom, I'm teenager, soetimes i made mistakes and i know you're sometimes angry, because it's alll my fault.
but does you really know how it hurts to be slaped by you? i always thinking like you're my mother how could you do this but then, she insults me again. i mean, she just can tell me what's wrong like "sweetie, this is wrong you supposed to......" just talk to me and i'll understand.
she wanted change me, it's like she never knows who i am.
and it hurts.
stop child abuse.
they need a little freedom. they need to breathe.
they need a support from you.
they need you to encourage them
and i'm one of you all that would gonna help stop that
i'm one of you all that would gonna support them
i wish there is no the other who has to go through what i've gone through
god bless you all